hem.. Back. I m back. with feelings tat i wish i can make it clear days ago. Is really hard to keep, when is out.. Trying to be back to life. With som expectation. yet, more in my relationship with ppl.

I got some result. Finally, we got gold for relay team. Gosh. is really hard. Hopefully can go for m. Basicly, i took 3 acara in juz a day. gosh. I felt so lost. Really lost.



I question. Why so many a day? high jump. Fun. pagar, tiring. Close. haha~ Kijang, my legs totally cant take it. They r tired. It hurts.

Our team was good? hem.. Ya. yet, there always is some arguement. hem.. five members, four can run, one cant. but, i love~ really love n enjoy being Kluang's team. Noo regrets at all. is worth. Very worth. Joy, tat i can expess. Happiness, tat comes not by buying or seeing, but by cheering n encouraging each other.






I miss everyone. every smiles. every joy. every part of every moment. i m sun burned. but i m seriously HAPPY!! since every1 is lik tat.. hahaha!! lots of last year athelets.. hem.. sad. but if old wont go, new wont come. i know. i need to let go. tat is wat i m trying to do. now, my world is blank. tired. happy. alone. missing.

THANKs teachers!!!! really!!

after all, went back by bus. no partner. since jie lun went back. oh!! i founf out tat i m kind of 'same' with jie lun.. haha!! same height, atitude? hem.. juz tat we had a great time, became close friend. hahah!! i aso knew more about ppl i didnt realise after years.. n ppl tat i always see. Some sad. some interesting. OHH!! kota tinggi gone out of water!! goodness.. haha.. we had to get water for bathng n stuff.. toilet was distusting. ahahaaha..

well, continue, sat with no 1, so Poh came in front n kind of talk to us. hem.. i realised his life was.. hem.. complicated, fixed. n suffered. b'coz, throughout years, i didnt care n alway thought he is proud n unfriendly. finally, i know. i was wrong. hem.. sudden, i felt sad. n weird. coz i always wanted to go to sport sch. but, i realised, he missed a lot, but got a lot too. is diferent from my life. A lot. i see sadness n his win.

hem~ he said i will never understand. i sudden, realise how big the world is. i m juz a pure blank paper. Am i? .. hem.. will i ever understand how life will be to leave house at 10 years old, being alone when trainer scold, be independent. in everything. basicly, he earns thousands dollar a month.

Izzit a wrong desicion? he said no. He went to 7-8 countries.. for competition. see diferent kind of ppl. know diferent cuture. but he will never taste simplicity. cause he missed tat part, to be innocent.



Sad. Happy? or satifed? i m confused. Cause i will never know, or i juz dun want? Gosh. i wonder how much she given to run tat fast. Sometimes, is hard to be in the middle. Not simple, but not complicated. U see simple life. Daily routine. yet, there is another kind of life, where ppl r special with more talent.

I felt lost. Lonely. n stress. yet, happy, satified, n simply impress. after all, i found out i wanted to be me the most. not be 'in' the sports world, either 'out' in life. I will try my best to get back to life. n seek my purpose back. Be wat i need to be.

".. Go Kluang Go!!.. Go Kluang Go!!.. Go Kluang Go!!!! .. " ~the forever memorable race..

LALALALALALALALA..