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On 5:01 PM , Sunday, March 25, 2012

I find growth to be something bittersweet.
Most of the time, there's loss in gaining something new.

Sister and cousins, along with their other-halfs came to penang.
Moments where we're all in a public bus, they being like any other loving couples, talking about home, etc. Made me miss home so badly. Hearing happening stories of people that I grew up with, that now have me excluded.

That wanna-cry-but-cannot feeling.

Though I understand. But cannot help it to feel abandoned.
Know this is the place where I learn most, yet things can be so inconsistent that scare.

Funny that to get what we really want, we have to let them go.
Including people that matter alot. Also includes not rushing into a relationship and ended up holding the wrong hand.

So. I cry for how life works. Things that come with a price, including letting go of the past. Yet knowing that the Lord is the One that gives life in unexpected ways.

"Carefully and cursively we fill our travelling diaries, with loss."
- Dry the River.

Love how it's written.
Let me agree, cry, and then let it go.

LALALALALALALALA..

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birthday

On 3:14 PM , Friday, March 23, 2012

Just had my first away-from-home birthday.
Expected myself to be miserable. Turned out to be rather a good one
Usual routines, with good people. Hehee. :)

Started with a simple but sweet celebration with some of the PKA-iers. Then. Josie called. Yay.
Mid-night. Spent time with Audrey under a nice tree playing guitar, singing worship songs.
Felt so blessed. To be prayed for and to start a day with worship.

Tidur really late. Had assignment to complete. My bad, last minute.
Missed 8am and 9am classes. Unintentionally. Celebrated, lunch with Sze Nie & Pika. Same birth date; it was meaningful i different ways :) Continued with classes and met Peijie, makan kuih at Fajar. Dinner with Kim, Vernard, Michael and Yen Nee before heading for JazzB prac.

Quartet sounded so good. :D
Practices were tiring but delightful. Kena pour water and cake on the face later. They told me I screamed like mad woman. Ran all over chasing ppl with cake.
Ended with mamak at Khaleel and a lovely cake.

Was rather a fruitful day i guess.
Deep down, extremely thankful for people who care. :')
Not easy to find eh? People who care not out of obligations but purely to befriend.
How rare, how precious. THANKYOU, LORD.

So..I'm 21. Not much difference actually.
Feel the same, but I know things will be different for sure. Soon or later.
Garrr. Busy hectic week ahead. Lord, lead me.

LALALALALALALALA..

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:)

On 2:17 PM , Sunday, March 11, 2012

Hehe. Nothing much to blog about.
Been.. feeling and tasting God's blessings in life.
:)

Sometimes. Cannot help it to sing.
Felt like singing all day, before class; after class.
Happy or not, alone or part of a crowd.

Trainings have been hard; trying to perform as expected.
Studies, I'm lost. Jazzband, learning to make relevant decisions. Also, challenged to play better.
Church & CF, learning alot. People and the Word.

Thank God for a rather simple but nice week.
Realize everyone needs ill bit of downs all the time to learn/build our character. Like it or not, we learn best when we're vulnerable.

When all is stripped away, where do we turn to?
When you get what you want, where do we turn to?

So.. terima kasih Tuhan.
Kerana kasihMu.

LALALALALALALALA..

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family camp

On 5:48 PM , Sunday, March 04, 2012

Back from pka family camp. After a rather long and weary week.
3days, 2nights. Started off with a heavy downpour.

Didn't really know what to expect. Hated that feeling of walking to another uncertain/unfamiliar place, again. Really just wanted to go home.
But, turned out to be great i guess :)
Got to know many even better. Especially for the nights, didn't really join the large group fun. Enjoyed staying in dorm with some others there.

Great to simply get a getaway.
i'm reminded of God's faithfulness. And, i'm convinced that God does provide. Thank God for relationships built that have depth.

Now. Back to... reality. Where, nothing is assuring.
Hehe. Recharged spiritually; challenged to be consistent.

Lord. Help me to be prepared to receive Your help.
Help to find my identity in You, not someone or something else.

LALALALALALALALA..

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