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youth sunday

On 12:20 PM , Sunday, September 26, 2010

This might be the last Youth Sunday for me.
It feels weird to grow up, sometimes. Few years down the road, no more youth but young adult?=X

Today's church service was taken over by youths.
I worship led, for the second time. =S
Scary as usual, but at least I tried to stay calm.
Then there was a sketch, and we performed sign-language.=)

Friday practice was fun. Honestly, it has been quite some time since we're that 'together' and ber-sama-sama. Amazing to see people who were shy back then, now standing up and perform.

We had band practice on Saturday.
Though most are new musicians, they did really well.
Really really well, and honest when sharing.

It went well, but what matters most was- it was a [we] performance instead of an [I] show. Simple things, changed lots.

I've been struggling a lot, in many areas.
Sometimes, I still feel not-belonged in many occasions.
I guess It's true that we need to know who we're in Christ. Our identities as His son/daughters and the responsibilities attached.

Busy, busy, busy week gone, few more ahead.
Once again see Hope in our youth; Love in church.
I'm keeping those heart-felts in mind. =)

LALALALALALALALA..

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sigh

On 1:58 PM , Monday, September 20, 2010

Sometimes really lah, really really hope humans do not need to sit for exams, or even face any form of competitions that bring stress.=='

Sigh. Sigh..
Though you should get used to not knowing how to do in Form 6, it always makes people feel really down and devastated. Sometimes, almost the whole school can be real depressed because of the exam we sat for.

To not know how to do in one thing.
Worst still, to receive the results out of the whatever you've written.
Arghh....

I've been working hard. But still, not hard enough?
hahahaha. They say we need the right mood to study, so true.=P

I'm trying to not disappoint people who helped me much, and those teachers in particularly. But..hehe. I guess I really have to study more in the month to come.=='

Thinking of it, makes me wanna vomit.=='
Though sometimes it's comforting to know kawan-ies are going through it with you. But at the end of all, you're still the one sitting the exam, alone. ahhhh...

This is a time where I struggle to understand 'reality' when we say God is the reality instead of those earthly things. Though it's temporary, yet we do have the responsibilities to fulfill certain obligations including exams?

It's funny that exams are prioritized ahead, when they actually don't carry much.
no point having great qualifications without character, eh?

I believe God works through impossible ways. Though I hate exam, but I know it's also God's vessel in building our characters and of course, integrity. And, it wasn't STPM, we won't be in something known as Tingkatan Enam and be gathered. =)

hahahaha, amazing lor.
Even the impossible, You always make it possible.
So..., I'm tired, but I know it's Your plan. So I'll press on. :D

一年多了...一路来太多曲折; 喜怒哀乐捉拿不来.

LALALALALALALALA..

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crazy men!

On 11:34 PM , Wednesday, September 15, 2010

This morning as I went for branch with my mummy at a hocker centre near my house, I experienced a ridiculous treatment for a group of middle-age men.

I saw sitting and having my mee.
My mummy went to ta-pao leaving me alone at my sit. So happened, I was sitting at in the middle of a roll of tables [4 tables]. Then, first came a man, he sat at the last corner. Slowly, one by one sat around me even as there are many sits else where. To my horror, one even sat right in front of me. =='
[@#$%#*@#&$@(!&@..]

You know, I was so wanting to leave.
But, I wanted to let them know I'm not afraid. Though, I couldn't stand some of their eyes' contact. So, I didn't finish my mee and left.

It really digusts me, and pisses me off.
To see mature men being so immature.
As a man, come on lah.. show some respect to female species please.

One of those times, I feel like taking control of this world and give those disrespectful men a lesson.
Helo, jangan ingat saya perempuan, then boleh take advantages.
We aren't perempuan of 1950-an, we do fight for our rights.

I've been really inspired by Hannah Yeoh.
Her courage, passion to change M'sia.=)
She has proven what woman can do if one trust in the hand's of God.

Enough of 变态公..
One day, I wanna change my world, just like she is.

LALALALALALALALA..

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stronghold

On 2:29 PM , Sunday, September 05, 2010

Finally, I got to go for facial and get rid of the many many back-heads of mine.yay! I been having them all around my face for several years, perhaps.

I remember, those days.
Back in Standard 4 I guess?
I used to play and train for basketball right after lessons in school, and get back home fast to rush for maybe another tuition. So, I wasn't that concerned about the condition of my skin nor how to protect it. Years then, I started to have many more face problems.=='

Today as I was so excited to have them get rid of..
I found myself almost tearing because it was painful.
Seriously, painful.=='

The lady had to press and used even needle to pluck them out. She told me I had a lot deep-rooted blackheads, even asked why didn't I took good care of my skin.

That close to half an hour of 'treatment'.. =='
Taught me an important lesson.
[Get rid of any strongholds that are holding you back from being who you're or near to God before they grow deep-rooted.]

I've been struggling much with loving people I guess.
It's easy to love someone fun and perhaps, operates in a way you like. Though, not easy to live nor tahan people whom aren't that simple. I find myself having problem with people, especially those I kinda got to know better.

Shouldn't walk away, when you see one's ugliness?
Or perhaps, he/she brings out the worst of who you're?

ARGH.
I don't like to be forced to love. But, it's a responsibility to love? but to hate someone, isn't it a declaration saying God made a mistake?
What I learn these two days is, we can't never have a bigger heart unless it's from God.
So yup, Lord. Give me compassion.
Give me strength :)

还以为脱离了, 结果还是得面对, 接受..

LALALALALALALALA..

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