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fear

On 9:44 PM , Thursday, March 25, 2010
I usually rather drive along the main road even if it takes more time and petro. This night, I took the shorter short-cut to go home.[no choice..]XD Drove through the hutan with merely few houses with lights along it, couldn't even see the what lays ahead well. Anytime, by chance, any driver might crush down into the egde and die, eh?

The kind of fear. Not knowing what lays ahead.
Yet, it isn't even optional but to keep moving forward.
Lots of times, we're doing what we have to?

Been really really worn out. Exams.
Finally. Last day. Relief, yet deep burning anxiety.
Seriously, even going to school can be quite burdened.
Too unpredictable.

Found myself off the horizon, out of comfort zone.
Finding courage.
Bit by bit, fall and try to get up.
Fall and get up.
Fall again., and get up.

Till a point I'm asking. How many more times?

"..when you're in it, it seems like the whole world is collapsing.. but when you look back, those are the times you learnt and it's merely a small part of your life."

I'll be OK, when it's You by my side.
Fall, and get up. =]
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purposeful

On 6:25 PM , Friday, March 19, 2010
I saw this picture [taken in London] in Facebook that day. Couldn't get it out of my mind.

Somehow, this picture made me really sad, depress.
Kind of disturbed my mood, deep stir of dry-ness.

Beautiful scene. Too grand to embrace?
It boggles at my mind with the fact that there's a larger part of the world that I'm yet to discover.Yet silly me, quite happily [at least trying lar..] settling down with where I'm? Where're the ambitious adventurous dreams of..?

I used to be a dreamer.
But. Those stuff don't matter that much anymore? =]

I walked home today after Blueprint [inspiring!].
Thoughts crowded, needed some time to walk them off perhaps.
2 min drive, I took 10 min.
Haven't been spending time to walk around. The park got a lot dirtier.
Felt so calm. Inside out.
And after such a long time, truly happy.=]

Sometimes I find myself captivated by a simple 'nite..'
Not a bombastic word, but it carries a lot huh?

Am I not dreaming big enough?
Depends on how you choose to view it bah.
Well, for now. My dream is to appreciate things better. At least try to lar hahaha.XD

That's a big dream, don't you think so?=P
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wonderland

On 11:24 AM , Sunday, March 14, 2010
I watched Alice and the Wonderland with my family yesterday night. I love fairy tales [=P] though I know they aren't real.XD Was inspired by one of the scene, when Alice was again doubting her abilities to kill the dragon. "Absolute[haha!]" asked her: "..don't you remember? Back then, you called it 'wonder-land.."

Alice then realised it wasn't a dream. Those were memories.

Dunno why, but my mind was boggled by this phase.
Has life turned into a burden, instead of being something worth rejoicing about?

I guess many times when things turn bad, we choose to deny who we once opted to be. Or perhaps, we've forgotten who we're. The gifts given by God, the mission rooted deep down in our hearts.., gone?

Felt sad. So many times given up when situations aren't pleasing.
Struggled to adore, convinced that this world simply is too broken?
This morning, I'm reminded that everyone is broken. Living with broken dreams, broken hearts, worst still. Broken commandments between God. Way far from perfect.
Broken, but never too late to be healed by the Lord? =]

Learnt a fairy-tale lesson through this show.
Even if the whole world calls you silly.
Stop running aroud circles figuring out whether to believe its possibilities.
Wake up, and just do it. haha!=]
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四 人

On 7:43 PM , Sunday, March 07, 2010
世界很大. 能遇见真正认识自己, 自己认识的人.. 不容易.

你和我.
那晚似疯子, 高楼顶. 眺望夜晚的城市.
她说: 你不觉得很庆幸住在居銮吗?
没有城市般壮观的夜景, 但两人 静寂地 迷住了.
心中 燃烧着对上帝的感恩, 敬佩..
一起经历了不少.
背负责任多, 拥有对方的了解 安慰.=]

你和我.
不怎么了解你. 但你似乎轻易看透我.
一句话 足以让你明白.
你的一句句话. 好多次唤醒我..
简单的字里, 发现人生巧妙. 充满惊喜!

你和我.
多年前的认识; 近年的了解.
对朋友从不吝啬.
两人. 两个开心果.
心情好坏都有你. 辛苦了..
体会到..真正的好朋友, 就算经历从从. 不放弃.

你和我.
无意间发现你了解我. 你, 不应该了解我.
小事里, 你总是露出你的成熟.
捉拿不住对你的了解. 累了, 学习不去在意.
两人. 不在意别人怎么看.
醒了. 不能成为寄生虫. 美丽的错误 伤口烙印深.
更明白. 爱你的人更会让你难过.
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out of love

On 7:05 PM , Saturday, March 06, 2010
Had a different yet special morning. Went to STABK, hahaha.XD helped out in high-jump-ing. Really, I guess one is always most happy when one gets to do what that's in favor.=]

Today's talk was inspiring.
Something really hit me.
You know, sometimes it's quite hard to submit to authorities. Whether it's because I have my own thinking or I don't wanna do as needed. It's like, I'm obligated to do the things I'm doing. Sometimes, I find myself wondering whether I'm doing something 'cause I want to, or 'cause I have to.

I learn to. Do, out of love.
Follow what stated in the Bible because of Jesus' love.
Clip my hair properly not because I have to, but 'cause I love my school and the people in it.
Obey curfew, knowing I'll worry you for staying out 'till late night.

Not because I have to.
But I choose to and want to. =]

爱你的人不会让你难过的?
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快乐

On 4:10 PM , Friday, March 05, 2010
总算, 结束了..

忙得有点累, 但心里饱满.=] 这就是快乐?

一起上课的日子也不少了. 讲真的..一开始, 日子是苦涩的. 一直觉得自己被迫, 真的很无奈. 无法改变情况的感受, 都写在自己脸上吧. 你们的欢乐, 陪着我度过难关.

脸最臭的"雨天".. 也是坐在那儿, 听你们说话.
回想重新寻找意义的那时.. 你们, 我的安慰.

一个简单的星期五. 演出成功.=]
一起练习, 不容易. 各有自己的意见. 难, 把想象中的画面呈现出来. 又怕忽略一些些人. 有时有股冲动放弃, 因为发现有些观点差距大, 失望.

今天. 六点多, 踏入空荡荡的学校.
我不累, 因为我不是一个人的. =]
有这种安慰, 这种肯定.. 嘴巴关不上, 忍不住偷笑.XD

失去, 也是种收获.
这道理. 辛酸地. 体会到.
不再努力挽回过去, 学习不去在意.

因为我知道. 也接受了.
人有得有失. 得到失去的, 更学习珍惜. =)
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TEO XUE QI =)
22-03-91
"Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore"
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