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merdeka!

On 11:57 PM , Monday, August 31, 2009
Today is Malaysia's special day. =)
Not really felt, the kind of warmth-ness.
Didn't even know where was a count-down. =.=!!!
I guess, not all things are about "feelings" bah. Some things are best shown by actions? hoho!!=D
We went into the housing area near railway again.=D
This time with more STK-iers? =)
HEHE. Really encouraged lor.

I still find it hard bah. To really balance up my emotions. Not be smiling only if people are doing it. Not be angry in extreme ways if things are not in my favor? =X


I watched Up few days ago. Man..What a show well-done lor. =) Love the part where the old man had to leave everything inside the house in order to fly again to save the little boy.=) Speaks a lot of the situations we human are in eh? Hard to let go?

I nearly cried. Maybe because that flim itself speaks a lot of how I feel bah. Holding on to dreams far far away but never actually went for it? Chasing after so many things, only to know that what matters most is still people and peoples? "so true lieh.." =)

Love the part when the old man let go of his house. Not knowing that the house land-ed perfectly on the right spot as he always wanted it to? WOOOH. =D

Many times.
What is required is simply obedience.
Obeying God's calling and let the One up there to take care of the other things? =D
but you know lar. easy say, hard to do?

School tomorrow.
Much to duel with. Much to face. H-A-I-H.
"May the Joy of the Lord be our strength.." hoho!!!=P
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台上, 台下.

On 4:02 PM , Saturday, August 29, 2009
今年的Eden gotong royong结束了.=)
人,比往年来得少咯．
小遗憾，如果打扫的时间更长就好了!
不过也不错啦，工作一边唱歌,跳来跳去.hoho!!

讲到底．还是跟自己自在的朋友一起开心．
两个拉琴表演完了. 还有两个..

小兴奋, 小压力. =D

有时很累吧.表演, 就是要被观众欣赏?
最近都跟很棒!的音乐人合作.压力是有的咯..
很怕“带賽”, 越怕, 拉的越烂. 头脑空掉..

虽然不是第一次一起上台, 我还是怕.
可能.. 情况不同了吧?
怕, 答不到自己的要求.
怕, 人家比较?

在台下, 期待自己在上面的一天.
在台上, 觉得自己应该在下面?

“台上十分钟,台下十年功”
值得, 因为十分钟的光芒.
遗憾, 因为那十分钟不完美.

累了, 好累..=)
活在众人里,有吞不下的无奈.

表演者这身份好矛盾. 累了, 爬起来. =)



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pour out

On 12:23 AM ,

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up and down?

On 10:59 PM , Wednesday, August 26, 2009
A lot of events are coming up. =P
I realise that many things are slow-ly wearing me off.
Sometimes, I just can't help it to engage into the "WOHOOOO!!!" tempo and hard to really get back on tune onto the realistic field?

People are not that perfect.
I am not as good as what I want to be? =)

Accepting our weaknesses is part of living this life, eh?

big crowd cheers and depresses me.
Part of me knows great things are made possible by unity.
Part of me acknowledges that I am just another human?
But yesh man. " Hope is grief's best music. " ? =D

Today was really fun! =P
I think we play more than climbing bah? excluding 3 orang.
Love the relaxing mode, Mafia-ing,dancing. =)
A right time to get isolated and not facing another big crowd adding more complications into my little tiny mind. hoho!! =P

For whatever ups or downs.
Whether is beyond my power of handling.
All to You. From You. Through You. Amen. =)
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railway =)

On 4:54 PM , Monday, August 24, 2009
Today suppose to be a tiring day.
As early as 8 a.m, awake. =)
We went in for the railway project with some of the 1a.m team. hehe. With few classmates too =D It was fun.
Reeeeeeeeally. =)
Though was really scorching.
One of those times, I feel worth it being sun-baked. =P

Quite a great time talking/walking.=)
Though half way, discouraged. By the kind of un-appreciative attitude shown by people of this world. It's just hard. To see, acknowledge the fact that many are trying hard to help/serve but people are just unwilling to change?

I am still learning.
It's the heart of worship that matters? =D

After 2pm+. We left the team.
Left with four of us. We went to finish up some work. =)
And took a picture. hoho!! TADA!! =P

We missed tuition. And are super-duper dirty/smelly. hoho!!=P
But really no regrets. =X
Dancing jumping at home. hohohoho..
I realised that the hard part is the follow-up.
But truly. The joy of the Lord, shall be our strength.

Sometimes to be joyful, is a choice.
Mindset, is also a choice?
A form of freedom/joy like a butterfly.
I learn to appreciate things even more preciously..=)

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1 a.m relent

On 9:22 PM , Sunday, August 23, 2009
Today was a day to be remember-ed. =)
Change The World concert yeah! =D hehe. You know. At first, really takut like mad that people would not respond as my expectations. Having a bad sleep and rushing here and there with much complications. But what I really learnt is, "heloo! it's not about me"?

hehe. =)
Half way through the concert.
Nearly wanted to cry in an extreme way.=P
WOW-ED, by what the Lord can do.

CHANGE. TO BE CHANGED. =)
thanks guys! for coming lie..=P hehe. thanks thanks thanks, appreciate you appearing and didn't run away half way.=P really hope you guys had a great time and picked up lots of stuff that impacted your life gah hoho!! =)


btw! The band was just amazing lar! WOOOTS!!! =D
Messages were close to heart? (really lie.. (= )

Before I went back. Took a picture of Kluang.
Found out that, man. Lots of stuff is going on eh?
A simple piece of comfort, to know that people care.
A down-to-earth "UH~" . Because not sure whether sustainable.

Another event passed. Few to come.
A deep relief, deep deep thankfulness. =)
Amazed by people. And the One up there.
*Father.. what a day to be remembered..=P*

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courage

On 3:38 PM , Friday, August 21, 2009
昨天下起了大雨.

天黑地吓人咯..

最近, 感叹很多.. 让人=)的事也不少. =D

一时感动. 一时失落.
有时, 无法调整好情绪..

以前的躲避处. 没了. 有时也累了, 不想走动.

以前的你们我们. 好像愈来愈疏远了?

一直流荡, 有不少欢乐. 也有一点无奈.
国庆日要到了, 看见很多课室布置.. 小心酸.


回到原点.

小累. 看清楚了自己的身份. 手上的责任.

不是倒下的时候吧?

感叹. 有时. 好, 不够好.

想告诉你.. 我也明白. 作圈外人不好受. 明白你哭..

其实当你哭时. 想一起哭. 又怕两个人哭不停..=)

每次告诉人家.

不要为人活. 自己好像犯了同个错.

原谅我. 我知道自己不该悲观.

又下雨了.

想起了那句.,

it takes both sunshine and rain to form rainbow.


心服口服. 学习成长有点痛.

though I walk through the wilderness,
blessed be Your name..
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遗憾

On 6:54 PM , Tuesday, August 18, 2009
今天又经过Technics的大门..
很熟悉的入口处..
想想以前, 总拖着自己不睡觉去上课..

其实. 遗憾我是有的.
讲到底., 他也毕竟是教我真正看notes, 拉琴得像人的恩师咯.
从表演简单的Reflection, 到那时Orchestra般的出动..

从他身上. 我目睹了一位音乐家的作风.
直率. 完美主义.
他的生活. 反映了音乐的美.音乐的代价..

应该是中二或三.
受不了了?
当许多人都停了. 我最终也停课了..

今天上提琴课时, 看见老师拉着拉着..
真的好好听.. 感受到熟悉的味道.
想起了他.
那种让人顿时陶醉, 迷惘的完美.
时间好像暂停似.

遗憾. 一个表演家, 不一定是个好教师.

想回去.
也没有真正道谢. 也没有说再见.

没有遗憾离开.
因为, 我是个学生. 需要的是老师.
也学习了"喜欢" 提琴. =)

拉着Csardas这曲子.

心里有种种的矛盾..

感叹这世界不完美.
感叹这世界不完美的完美..
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hang on

On 9:13 PM , Sunday, August 16, 2009
You know. Just like every creture on earth we need more or less some space to breathe and maybe grab hold of now? At different point, with different desires and expectations we can be crumpled into disappointment or depression out of bitterness or anger. Let things go by? Soon or later no feelings, indifferent hardened like a stone. Not lost, but not fine?

Burst out tears.
For the sake of emotions?

They say hang on.
Even if you feel like you're standing alone?

"when you're having a headache,
Don't count the sheep.,
look for the Shepherd." -Andrianna Ho


Learning not to live for tomorrow.
But for the Lord.
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change the world

On 11:22 PM , Friday, August 14, 2009

小开心, 大感恩..=)

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breathe

On 8:50 PM , Thursday, August 13, 2009

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pencalonan?

On 9:48 PM , Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Today STK had pencalonan for MPPPU. =)
Let's just say, even in these two days, much had happened eh? What people think; things said about people etc.
You know, I suddenly realised that things have changed.
Not like what I always visualised.
Not like what I expect or want to expect?

UHH.
Today, even in such a short time.
I realised how easily defeated I am.
How indecisive or afraid of taking risk I am, esspecially when what people say is against my will.

So it's true eh?
Kill to survive?

Let's just say. I want a clear mind.
Think more than doing? =)

Standing not-so-firm on this realistic ground.
I realised more than I can express.
I think. And not thinking the next moment.
Deep down intense.
Not sure what tomorrow brings.
Yet some gladness.
To hear voices of close-to-heart people.
And the comfort of the Lord.
Even in the midst of 'war'.. =)

今天终于累倒了.. 没去提琴课. 哈哈!

睡醒了. 轻松多了..觉得头脑有点动了? 哈哈..
The night was beautiful. =P
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On 8:43 PM , Saturday, August 08, 2009

The best place on earth - Kluang "Battown!" hoho!!
what a town to be in..=)

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On 3:38 PM , Friday, August 07, 2009
坐在电脑前, 不知道如何描述.
应该发言时, 有时也说不出心里想说的.

总觉得, 自己过着超人的生活.
飞上飞下.. hoho!!
有野孩子的感觉.

今天, 第一天开始没车用.
早上坐妈妈F1车. 很久没被载, 在后面往外看了.
有种回到小学乖乖的日子..
讲到底, 还是需要父母的陪伴..=)
不管. 风, 还是雨..

一丝丝的无奈.
明天的camp取消..=.=!!
刚刚, 钱包忘了拿不见了..
今晚我们Lower Six的Quest. =D
功课又一堆. 明天比赛要好好练球.

啊.啊啊..
超人也会累吧?

一时之间, 很多事?
UHH..发现. 东西都时常变.
发现. 爸妈扛起这个家, 果然了不起.=)

读书, 吃饭, 补习, 睡觉..
普通的事很容易take for granted.
真正的意义降落于自己的选择..
Lord, help us to make better decisions. =D
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充实?

On 9:40 PM , Tuesday, August 04, 2009

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to love

On 7:12 PM , Monday, August 03, 2009
Today I did something I don't like to do again.
Pump petrol. ARGH!!!! =P

haha!! Well. I really don't like to lor. Feel so weird. But at least got uncles to talk to? hoho!! and some time being independent garh.

Hmmm.
But. Even after lots of times.
I still find it hard to love things that I don't like.
Same goes to people?

I find it hard to really love.
Love the worst side, not just the good side?

Today during lecture was talking about judging people by the way they look and how pretty etc.
Just to be true to myself.
I guess. That's what all of us do eh?

Do you love youself because of the knowledge that someone special is falling for you? Or, because you know clearly that God don't make mistake and made you wonderfully and beautifully?
How convincing the crowd is do affect our thinking eh?

I find it hard to answer lor.
Same goes to whether I am playing or running for the Lord, or pleasing the crowd.
But easy to say, hard to do eh?
Who don't want acknowledgement? Who don't care what people think, even if they say they don't care?

I was brought back to a simple piece of truth. =)

Love is patient, love is kind. It is not jealous, (love) is not pompous, it is not inflated, it is not rude, it does not seek its own interests, it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury, it does not rejoice over wrongdoing but rejoices with the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
-1 Corinthians 13:5-8

I find it hard to love. Love the difficult ones.
Know too much to not love?
At the end of all things. We do have a choice lor.
To love, or not. To accept, or not. To smile, or not.
After all, no point living without loving eh? =)

'Feel' good every second girls! =P
God made no mistake in creating us! =D
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1-8-2009

On 3:44 PM , Saturday, August 01, 2009
Today I learnt a valueable lesson.=)
Badminton match for Form 6 was held yah. hehehehehe =D
Fun? More than that.haha!!

For mixed double. We lost during the first round. After all the plannings, observing, hoping. We lost by 1 mark? hmmm. But in the middle of the game, the fact is I already a bit giving up?

This morning I was thinking.
Would things be like they used to be?
Always lose, always always lose. Even after training etc.
I just can't get myself to perform or play the best in competitions?

=.=!! Can't get over a simple past?
Well. hehe. Later we won the women double! =)
WOOOOOOOOOOOOTS!!!! =P *happie!*
( my first badminton win lieh..=P )

You know. It's tiring.
To love something so much but just can't win when doing it?
So we all just wanna win hoh?

"比赛有时就是这样的,会有你想不到的结果, 重要是有学到.."
what a phase from you. Agree.=)

happy. Not really because of the Gold we get (because of it also lah!=P). But get to know a banch of funny and serious ball-lovers!=D the time we had will always be something I will laugh thinking of them! hoho!!

One of the thing I admire of the Upper(-ies) is how united and together-together they're lor.. Though was a bit like bullying the minority(Lower)! =P


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