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On 7:30 PM , Sunday, February 28, 2010
LYPG was awesome.XD
It has been quite some time since we prayed like that.

Dunno bah. I guess I've been ill-lost recently.
Esspecially when everything seems to be going 'well'.
Many things are getting better, sports ended quite satisfying-ly, people are encouraging, comfortable with situations. Etc.
But somehow, It's never enough. Recognizations given are never mencukupi; stressful 'till I can't handle. I'm unhappy?

像空罐子似. 外表好好的, 心里偷偷破了个洞.

Couldn't grasp hold of who I'm profoundly.
Xue-qi? tou-zu-qi? Su-ki? ah-xue?

Today I realised that it's because I haven't been prioritizing God as first. Instead, I've been focusing on the earthly things. Without Christ, everything is meaningless.

Beautiful day.=)
Because once again, I tasted freedom.
Peace from within, joy bursting inside out. =]

Open my eyes to the things unseen.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours.

没有你, 没有我.
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hari sukan

On 9:15 PM , Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Finally It ended?=)
Weird, but somehow I been hoping for it to end as soon as possible.

From knowing nothing. Guided.
Till knowing more, aiming for records and completing in higher levels.
Months of training, years of friendship. It became part of me?
Truly enjoyed and gained much along the way.
But I guess, It's time to say good-bye bah.=)

I love sports. But sometimes it's too heart-breaking.
So much courage needed to accept one's weaknesses.
It hurts inside out to see many given-up hearts and one happy winner. For me, it's too unfair. ==

When you're running, have you ever felt that the air is like becoming so heavy because you're sort of having the same speed with it and it's hitting your face hard? WOOH.=) It feels amazing man.XD
But I guess, I'm tired already.
Perhaps, it's because I'm not that good anymore and I need time to accept it.

So. YAY!=) Mission accomplished!XD
Got two Golds, two records.
Both relays settled down with 3rd, but was really worthwhile lar.
Good job to many who did their best. that's what that matters most?

It feels good to have people around who encourages.
Cheering, boasting my confidence with words of comfirmation.
Thanks will never be enough. But thanks.=)

期待它的过去. 过去了, 舍不得.
一时的胜利是暂时的, 大家苦命苦练的时光 忘不了.=]
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买不起 人心

On 10:41 PM , Monday, February 22, 2010
喜欢来喜欢去, 是种习俗?

啊.. 有时, 措手不及. 不是不懂得处理, 而是这不是东西. 人有感情, 不是说:"放.."就放. 预测不到, 捉拿不来. 当太在意时, 自己最后受伤吧? 但奇怪, 人似乎玩得起这游戏, 陶醉其中?

在意. 因为重要.
容易心碎, 因为太重要.
痛心, 因为动心?

一场游戏, 伤痕累累.

人与人之间有种奇妙的连结.
简简单单的爱, 可以是全世界.
巴杀买到的便宜礼物, 可以因为爱有价值.
就算是在垃圾场里, 有人的陪伴,成为个美丽的回忆.

想想..
人因为爱, 掌握世界?
但失去时, 失去全世界?

默默付出的人剩多少? 爱到要死要活的呢?
找个分享人生的人, 不容易.
我学到做人, 不该太贪心..
挽回不了过去.
该放下的就放.该珍惜的好好对待. =)
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home

On 11:57 AM , Sunday, February 21, 2010
It has been quite fun going to different houses and meeting people's parents etc. Though really prefer staying longer in one house, talking and play games. No point rushing through houses for the sake of getting more Ang-pao?

Can't never forget that night when I was again complainting about how messy my house is and not-so-fashionized it's. My little sister popped out with something. She said [in Chinese]: "aiyahh..This is our house mah, it's the way it's lah., why need to try so hard to change.."

Won't deny, many times felt shameful.
Why so concerned that people judge things by its outer appearance?
Because people's thoughts matter?

I learnt a beautiful lesson from my little sister. The way she always hangs around with my parents; the way she runs around laughing or even picnic-ing with Lily and Bobo. Perhaps a beautiful house would be awesome, but without much care and understanding, it would be merely an empty shell.

Amazing eh? Perhaps, one generation can never function well enough without the other generations, we need each other. Great time to get generations gathered.=)

took a step back
Realise such a big family I'm having
Whether it's the KL people, Agape-iers
Relatives, church,
schoolmates, ex-schoolmates XD

Though there's imperfections and frustrations
Sometimes burdening,
but it's of powerful worth, treasure more worth than gold.=)

睡不好的那夜, 你也应该没吧..
对不起. 不能太自私, 随所欲为. =]
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CNY!

On 7:04 PM , Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Spent first day of chinese new year distributing food via I Love Kluang Project. You know, it's always hard..even after several times, to accept the not-so-pleasant side of society.

We went to many houses. Though can't forget what said by a Indian man who lost his legs in an accident. They were talking about what happened that time, and he said:" ..Pajero!!!" He said with a kind of conviction that really saddens me. Seems like that memory is so stucked in his mind.

Perhaps, it's hard to forget what really hurts?

Went to KL later on. And back in Kluang, moving from houses to houses. =) Didn't really spend much time to make up or what, but somehow., I guess that isn't what that matters most bah.XD

Just now,had a great time layan-ing Form6 people who came.XD
hahahaha..XD it was sort of a music reunion. Then moved on to a heart-attack frenz and Play Station's tennis game.==

Hardly seen. But glad to see many of them away from books and laughing that crazi-ly.=)

淡淡的夜. 鞭炮声响起..
想起了你, 你你..偷偷担心下看不见的未来.
快倒下.可不是时候.
看见妈妈牵着外婆的手, 偷偷笑..XD
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4.23

On 4:05 PM , Thursday, February 11, 2010
And so, It ended. Did a new record, but somehow.., wish I did better. Only if, I have less injuries, more energy, better run-up, and not a berlobang-lobang track lah. haha!

Well, "Only if-ies.." don't exist, eh?XD

Haven't been having a smooth sports' year.
I guess, He takes away and allows things to happen as it's for its reasons bah.
Learnt a lot along the way.
Enormously inspired by people. =)

Trying to understand. Feeling help-less, because there'll only be one winner and rolls of losers.
Lost words in comforting. Even sometimes I fail to comfort myself.
Glad that, the Lord is our greatest Comfort.
Whether it's the pouring rain, scorching Sun, or even the dizzling nights.. He's with us.XD
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last 400m

On 8:11 PM , Tuesday, February 09, 2010
I have a huge problem with long distance stuff. Somehow, I kind of can't tahan that kind of feeling and my legs and hands will just die down after some time. haha!

Won't deny. Been quite stressed because of it.
Having no choice but to run 400m. Once again, mentally torturing luh.== Always thought I ran my last 400m back in Form 5's MSSD.XD Even that time I was dying. hahahaha..=)

So of course lah. Everytime, I'll feel embarassed, as an athelet., can't even conquer Merentas Desa, feared that I will again disappoint people, even if I did my best which isn't enough.
I guess. What said about the fact that we can never run away from the lessons God wants us to learn is true bah.

Sad that sometimes, expectations are inevitable.
Though, because of them. I learn to lay down my pride.
Sorry, but yesh lah. I just can't win all the time..=)

Ran 4X400m. Abu Bakar got third.
Ran my heart out. Ran with all my might.
Weird, but I didn't really care whether we win or not.
Can't help it but to feel proud of my team. Can't help it to say:" Goood run.." knowing that they gave it all.

I guess. This is what we call as sports.=)
Took me such a long time, to fully grab hold of its meaning.

在杂乱的欢呼声里, 听见辛酸的脚步声.
偷偷的笑.
原来啊.. 真的.知足者常乐.XD
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your best?

On 6:06 PM , Wednesday, February 03, 2010
Sukantara still on-going.
A huge relief. Ran 200m. haha!XD

Well, didn't really ran well yesterday for 100m. A bit ill-sad that hmmmph., timing wasn't good. == As a ketua, not sure whether I did enough.Though, had a great time seeing people cheering, screaming, running with all their might!
Huge applause to the Form-Six-iers!XD

I learnt an uncomfortable lesson.
There'll always be someone better, like it or not. =)
Find it hard to accept this fact bah.

After running lah. One of a Malay girl came to me.
She said:"kak.. gila lah kau.. Macam kilat lah."
I grinned. Deep down feeling so shameful for being so un-contented.
Part of sports, accept our inabilities eh?XD

The sky was blue-ishly beautiful
Because I know You're above, looking down.
Though much is expected.
Too heavy.
Finest delight.
Cause' I know. In You, I can rest. XD
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"ketua ah.."

On 6:19 PM , Monday, February 01, 2010
Dunno it's my fault or not. But really don't have that kind of lov-ish excitment for my team. Though as a ketua, tried my best to initiate proper warming-up(s) and haha!sometimes looked like a fool doing drills. ==

How to say lie. Different environment bah?XD
Though, quite fun bah. =) being in the midst of banch of crazy form-six-ier, 'training' in a much more relaxing manner. Still aiming on the two records!XD This year, kind of not that focusing on the result bah. hmmmph. Perhaps I've grew to realise what that matters more?

Not sure how many will turn out for Sukantara.
Not sure how to survive through 400m and Merentas desa.==
But. I will survive bah. haha!XD

Kind of weird that sport season is ending this fast.
In such a way somemore. =(
But many days of training have taught me lots, things that are far more important than getting a Gold medal lah.

Took note that the sky is so beautiful!XD
Suits fully with the claim that: "You're Perfect in the sky.."
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TEO XUE QI =)
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"Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore"
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