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On 4:14 PM , Monday, June 30, 2008

TRASH

defined a s a person or people regarded as being of very low social standing.

It has been one of the lowest point in my life. Basically, I failed my driving test. And, hmm.It actually crushed my dairytale dream. HAH.
And again, I had some kind of mental shock.

Anyway, today's joy reminded me about the hidden unseen part of my life. We were talking about a dream. A dream to unite our class in a hotel. A hotel basically comprices every field that our classmates are good at.

Its possible limits abruptly reminded me of one of my BIG desire.
I do want to get marry someone I love.
I do want to own a wardrobe huge enough for me to run here and there. YAY!!
I do want to go for missions.
I do want to perhaps be a PE teacher. HAHA

But everything reminded of how limitations strectched me. I nearly burst into tears., when I was visualizing my big dream. It reminds me of those iffy weathers that teman-ed me training. Trying, and trying., yet so trapped in my imperfections. And when the one and only opportuanity came, hm. so overwhelmed that I was busy finding back mayself. It just so hard to put to an end to things that have became essential in life.

I learnt painfully. When it's not your path, it will never be. If God wants you to be something precisely, no matter how, you will still be that something.

I looked back. By faith., I believe. There will be a better plan.

LALALALALALALALA..

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On 12:23 AM , Saturday, June 21, 2008

I was thinking, when kiri kanan were installed into my brain system. Signal! Balance, I stepped oil? I did. I was too tired., 3pm. Gosh, a black Mayvi popped out abruptly in supreme speed.

I wasn't the one stepping the break.
In split seconds, i was nearly died.

Frustrating. I am tired.
I just cant multi-task.
Though, I am still hanging on.
I am explosive. Maybe not now.,after..
I AM, help me.

LALALALALALALALA..

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On 12:27 AM , Monday, June 16, 2008

Anyway, I happened to know that some human on earth (I don't like him!) broke Liu Xiang 110m hurdles record. GREAT~ 12.87s. WHATEVER! ARGH!

For two continuous events, Liu Xiang actually had both false start. Not really a good gesture before Olympics. hmm. Nevermind~Things are just too unpredictable. eeeeee. Hopefully Liu Xiang can BOUNCE back in time! YAY!! Shine for Asians!

LALALALALALALALA..

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On 11:31 PM , Sunday, June 15, 2008

SINGAPORE! HERE I WENT?

HEHE. just for the sake of that exam, my whole family went.HAHA. hmm. basically, we overnighted in JB, and departed to Singapore! 6:00am+ (leh).haaih.So tired.

I learnt:
1. Malaysia and Singapore are two obvious different countries. Physically sangat ketara!
2. People actually travel to and fro everyday to work in Singapore! hmm. It's so tough lor.,everyday leh.
So crowded,frustrating..
3. I don't want to and, never will be a nerd.
4. Singapore secondaries are high-tech, and air-conditoned. COOL.
5. Now i know why they walk so fast. Everyday is a new competion.
6. People are hurting. Lonely.

IN-cidents:
1. I got a cacat set of modul for general test. Instead of having 1-36, i had repeated numbers and i dint
realize! only till the last 15 mintes.HAHA.hmmm. In the end, i only completed half of it. Candidly, at that point. I could have just pack up and go home. HAHA.
2. During the break, i sat alone at the bus station.hmm. I grinned at a little boy. He didnt respond. As cars
and cars passed by, i realized this global world is cold. Without temperature. Are we missing something?
3. Nerdy world actually has their kind of fun lor~HAHA.well, with higher standard of conversation and
much more logical topics lah. hmm. I feel awkward living among them. hmm.
4. A primary 6 boy can actually play the whole piece of FurAlice wo~ I actually only know how to play 3
pieces (very easy de!) till now. HAHA. What a difference.., poor kids nowadays.

It's just so weird when everything I thought that's seems so not in its place in the midst of the crowd. hmm. It's nice to be exposed to that competitive, seekening part of the world. When I nearly lost myself, sufficicated in that intense closed-doors., I realized i don't need to be like them. huh?

To be the one,
one is needed to stand out.
Be outstanding. Be the best.
hmm. So cruel, yet so true.

Even so, i still believe one shouldn't try too hard.
Being yourself, being what you like to be., will make one stands up.
Of course, doesnt mean that if u love watching tv then watch 24/7 lah..
HAHA.

Not sure whether I will survive in future.
But for sure lah.,
I wont be living for the world.
my Redeemer lives!! woohooo.

LALALALALALALALA..

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On 9:38 PM , Sunday, June 08, 2008

The battle is on?
Which battle? The frustration towards the unchanging lives,
or the died books exist on earth that ensure surefire success.

I realized.
I did not realize i was broken.
alas, I did not.

I don't like to be controlled.
I will try to accomplish visible goals with my own power, when things ARE relavant to me. I always forget Him.
I can't really accept things if i happened to know that my life is planned.
I can't bear to leave everything, if God calls.

I realized I never actually virtualised myself in realistic big dreams.
Out of the blue, I emerged to be lost in the vagueness of future.

I don't like to submit myself to truth.
I don't like to admit my weakness.
But, It's better than being eaten up by my own pride huh?

Huh. It's always hard to carry on.
when others seem so perfect.
But guess what, I don't heartily care.
My life isn't perfect. And it will never be.
YAY!!

"..Broken to be victorous!" Amen.

LALALALALALALALA..

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On 12:10 AM , Tuesday, June 03, 2008

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!!

I don't care what is happening right now, for a moment. Because, I know this was how you helped me through my stressful, dreadful training days.

HEHE. Well, it has been three years (gua). Sitting beside this fellow.HAHA. Well, basically breathing, surviving in half awake condition, laughing TOO loud always, talking, thinking, making mistakes, being frustrated, arguing+fighting in an ultimate way(like in between our table got a over-flowing river leh..),silience in exhaustment,trying to solve things..with this felloow.

This fellow.HAHA

Things are unexpected huh? After such a LONG time, still. Ur guitar got rushy.HAHA oh! ..hmm. well. I am more than glad to be positioned in your life, for my secondary days..HEHE. Those days are really remarkable.

Thanks to this special fellow.., and the other fellowish.HAHA..Thanks for being so considerative and give in with me esspecially during the sport season. Thanks for not judging. Thanks for not leaving me alone die off in the midst of the glory-seeking world. Thanks for., hmm. enlighting me., when expectations were so high and intense.

Too much. It shown me so much.
I actually won't mind crying for more..HAHA.

Let's not waste the few more months left lor~ HOHO.Aiyoooh., dun feel old lah. There are always someone older..HEHE..well, and younger.'='!!
Wooohooo..!! Let's celebrate for this special day..

LALALALALALALALA..

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On 12:17 AM , Monday, June 02, 2008

It eats me up.
Yup, I love the crowd. Sometimes.
I wish to know, acknowledge the world.
It's influencing me.
It starts, as it floods my mind with those inquisition.
Perhaps, I shouldn't even try to get them.
Self-control.
How many actually lose it, because they lose it?

Open wound.
It just saddens me.
To feel hearts of souls pumping, in eager of finding the solution.
Those are living human, man.
So, ya. I do hate crowd.
It reminds me too much.

Solution
It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find
The Mercy for the need

Singing, Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession
Yeah

It is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing, Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah

Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Only You can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only You can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a Father to the fatherless
Our Savior and our King

We will be Your hands, we will be Your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be Your light
We will be Your light We will be Your hands ,
we will be Your feet We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light We'll sing

Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Woah-oh-oh, God be the solution

Yeah, yeah We will run we will run
We will run with the solution [2x]
We will be Your hands
we will be Your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be Your light
We will be Your light
We sing

LALALALALALALALA..

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TEO XUE QI =)
22-03-91
"Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore"
PSALM 16:11

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